tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33118985270557770402024-03-12T18:26:48.758-07:00Else BarnardA less-than-virtual mind...Else Barnardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05843639264205252790noreply@blogger.comBlogger9125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3311898527055777040.post-88794294224455083382014-08-25T21:35:00.001-07:002014-08-25T21:36:30.659-07:00Abadona - Then and Now<span style="color: #666666;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><i>The act below was first performed in October of 2009, for the Beautiful Freaks Burlesque Sideshow. It's been reworked and revamped many times since, and remains one of my very favorite acts to perform. :)</i></span></span></span>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Abadona shivers in the cool of the judging chamber, unwarmed by the lone spotlight above. The ordeal to reach this place has been torturous, and though stoically motionless, she is weary beyond the telling. Engulfed in the fathomless shadows surrounding the stage, a buzzing voice, a sound that is not properly a voice at all, breaks her anxious reverie with a single word.
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<i><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><b>JUDGE: </b>"Commennnzzz!"
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">She rises to obey, tracing with her finger tip a curious sigil upon the air... cold, stale air, that now begins to swell with a tide of strange music. Giving one last, silent prayer to Queen Hecate for strength, Abadona begins her dance. She cannot see those who watch her now, but she feels their presence, and her indigo flesh crawls as eyes — and other, less-familiar sensory organs — press upon her from the darkness beyond this tiny pool of light.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">This ritual dictates the performance of a most ancient dance. Millennia have passed since its creation, and in all those years, none have dared to alter the sacred steps. By diverging from those prescribed motions, Abadona now dares much.
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">She has no rationale to explain her blasphemous actions. Merely the intuition, grown to an obsession... that true power, lies not in the repetition of dead formalities, but in grasping for the living and elusive Truth! The dance she now performs is her own, and knowing that these may well be her final moments, she flings herself into motion with redoubled passion.
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Dark streaks now smear across the stone with each step of her bare feet, but the air she draws with each ragged breath is not so stale as it was, and the chill has abated. Her strength should be exhausted... but enduring the discomfort, Abadona has discovered a well of inner resolve. The dance is nearly finished, and she does not intend to falter.
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Somewhere, unseen in the blackness, an agitated chittering erupts, but is suppressed when a command rings out.
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">The harshness of the word is an almost physical blow, but the chittering stops abruptly, and Abadona feels a victorious thrill. She has broken the thrall of a spell older than memory — let the Elders do with her what they may. Eyes gleaming defiance, she resumes the ready stance.
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<i><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><b>JUDGE:</b> "Yourrr performanzz hazz nnot dizzapointed uzzz..."
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Shocked by these words of unexpected approbation, Abadona's heartbeat pounds in her ears. The buzzing continues, like a maddening itch within her skull.
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><i><b>JUDGE:</b> "Yourrr zzzspirit izz zzstrong... bbbut yyouu rrrequire temperrringg..."</i></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Her skin crackles with an electric charge — she has time only to wonder at the scent of vanilla now saturating the air, before she is struck senseless.
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Recovering, she rises slowly to find herself in an unfamiliar place, wearing an unfamiliar visage. Her mind is filled with alien words, implanted knowledge—even a new name!—to ensure that her presence here will raise no alarms.
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Clearly though, the Elders have sent her to this place for a purpose, and she will master this new challenge, just as she did the last. The gleam returns to her eye, and "Else Barnard" sets off in search of her new "dormitory"... </span></span>Else Barnardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05843639264205252790noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3311898527055777040.post-13067486192876799622010-06-17T14:48:00.000-07:002010-06-17T14:50:37.405-07:00Always remember...... that there is a real human being on the other side of the glass. <br /><br />Remember also, that there is one on your own side as well.Else Barnardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05843639264205252790noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3311898527055777040.post-69704510095286231232010-04-15T14:07:00.000-07:002010-04-15T14:10:33.742-07:00I don't exist......when you don't see me.Else Barnardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05843639264205252790noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3311898527055777040.post-12243808076284324662010-04-12T10:35:00.000-07:002010-04-12T10:42:22.466-07:00One Hundred and Sixty Minutes of Sleep Last NightDespite <a href="http://elsebarnard.blogspot.com/2009/04/intuitive-leap.html">what I wrote last year</a>... I do worry about mortality. I fear that SL will someday cease to be, and that when it does, 'Else Barnard' -- and her twin, 'EAR Oh' -- will just... stop.<br /><br />Leaving behind only 'me'.Else Barnardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05843639264205252790noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3311898527055777040.post-59134420081273189292010-01-05T10:16:00.000-08:002010-01-05T10:18:43.222-08:00It recently occurred to me...... that the difference between a prayer, and a curse, is largely one of perspective.Else Barnardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05843639264205252790noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3311898527055777040.post-16340350104620529482009-06-10T12:28:00.000-07:002009-06-10T12:46:21.948-07:00Raised in CaptivityIn general, children are not permitted to leave parental custody. Exceptions to this are few, and almost always involve reassignment of custodial responsibility, e.g., teachers at school, or other children's parents on a play date.<br /><br />Parallels could possibly then be drawn between childhood, and a term of imprisonment. Neither state is voluntary, and involves a curtailment of freedoms to varying extent, with greater privilege given to those who cooperate the most. Care in some form is given by the captor(s), but the quality of care varies widely, from earnest attempts at education and support, to blatantly abusive neglect and mistreatment.<br /><br />So when a child grows up holding the same insupportably antisocial views as their parents, or rationalizes their own obvious ill-treatment, or makes excuses for their parent's questionable decisions; in short, when a child molds himself or herself to emulate the parent as closely as possible, with all behavioral tendencies intact... are we seeing a variation of the Stockholm Syndrome?Else Barnardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05843639264205252790noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3311898527055777040.post-88484338129786778602009-05-06T09:27:00.000-07:002009-05-06T09:53:11.659-07:00Realization #2 for May 6, 2009'The Boy Who Cried Wolf', is a well-known fable, in which a young shepherd grows so bored with the tedium of his work, that he repeatedly pranks the residents of his village with false alarms. In the end, there are dire consequences, as the populace refuses to respond to the boy's final - and this time legitimate - distress call.<br /><br />I was taught this story as a child, and that the moral was, that untrustworthy behavior leads to unforeseen repercussions. I never questioned this outright, but it always struck me as odd that the villagers would be included in this comeuppance, via the loss of their sheep. The boy usually fared much worse of course, but what had the villagers done to incur a karmic debt?<br /><br />Today, the answer finally came to me, and it's simple: the villagers had failed to act upon a known risk. They had clear evidence that the shepherd could not handle the trust placed upon him, but they chose to accept the easier path - of believing his promises never to repeat the trick - rather than go to the trouble of finding a more reliable replacement.<br /><br />It would have been a major loss to the village; sheep can be replaced, but we assume that the boy must have been loved and missed by someone, troublesome though he might have been. A high price to pay for adherence to the status quo.Else Barnardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05843639264205252790noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3311898527055777040.post-36490724495360239972009-05-06T09:19:00.000-07:002009-05-06T09:27:06.457-07:00Realization #1 for May 6, 2009Many bands are formed, and break up, without their members ever performing music together.Else Barnardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05843639264205252790noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3311898527055777040.post-46145791168715108372009-04-19T16:35:00.001-07:002009-04-19T16:35:02.236-07:00Intuitive Leap<div style="float: right; margin-left: 10px; margin-bottom: 10px;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/elsebarnard/3406367874/" title="photo sharing"><img src="http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3417/3406367874_a695f3d290_m.jpg" alt="" style="border: solid 2px #000000;" /></a><br /><span style="font-size: 0.9em; margin-top: 0px;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/elsebarnard/3406367874/">Intuitive Leap</a><br />Originally uploaded by <a href="http://www.flickr.com/people/elsebarnard/">Else Barnard</a></span></div>I've been thinking a lot lately about Blade Runner. Avatars, like replicants, are almost indestructible in practice, but are sometimes strangely delicate and vulnerable.<br /><br />I can fly thousands of meters into the air, then plummet to the ground without a parachute; falling so far that descent actually becomes tedious. I hit the ground, then brush myself off and walk away. There may be a few points of damage - if it's been turned on at all - but even that springs right back up to full health without so much as a bruise. Even if I am shot, blown up, or otherwise damaged enough to die, I'm not killed, just sent home. 'To regroup', as they say.<br /><br />But invulnerable, sadly, I am not. My existence is entirely contingent upon outside factors: the health of LL's servers, or their market share for that matter. Most tellingly, my existence is dependent upon that of a flesh-and-blood human, out there in your world. A loss of time, or interest, or a turn of poor health, could mean my ceasing to be. Those of you who know me, but not my puppeteer, would never know where I'd gone, only that I was here once, but no more.<br /><br />Still... Roy Batty was wrong. We do believe in what he claimed to have seen, the attack ships on fire, and the Tannhauser Gate. What's more, <i>we remember that he saw them</i>... and so, even though he never existed in meatspace, the idea of 'Roy Batty' is now distributed through countless diverse media both electronic and organic.<br /><br />Immortality via redundant backups. I like that.<br /><br />- E<br clear="all" />Else Barnardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05843639264205252790noreply@blogger.com1